Saturday, May 30, 2009
It is just wrong for a child to pass away. It's just wrong. And hard to see. Children are meant to grow old. But some are too precious and special to be left in this world.
It's been bugging me that the world just seems to keep on going when such a special person is gone from it. That went away yesterday while we were driving to the cemetary. Seeing all those people pulled over on the side of the road, stopped for Charlie, made me feel so much better about things. The world did stop for him, even if it was just for a few minutes and only on the way to the cemetary.
You have to laugh to keep from crying. It's not disrespectful, it's a way to cope. It's a way to remember such a wonderful life... My reasons for laughing: Getting ready for the wake, I got Taylor and Maddie ready first. While I was fixing my hair, Taylor got baby powder all over herself and Madison. There are pictures... but I don't know where they are right now. Another reason... At the funeral, taylor was being her usual self and wouldn't be still or quiet. I finally had enough and stood up to walk her out of the chapel. Only thing was, I had a strapless dress on (covered up with a sweater) and the top of my dress was at the bottom of my rib cage. Taylor had squirmed so much in my lap, it had slipped down without me knowing. I walked through the chapel, the overflow, and half the gym before I noticed it. Hopefully, not too many others did.
There is a plan for everyone of us. It is amazing what just a few little acts of kindness and love can accomplish. There have been 4 times in my life that I know I did what I was meant to do then. Meeting the Sandstrom boys and falling in love with them was one of them. The other three are marrying Chris, and having Taylor and Maddie.
Prayer is one of the most powerful tools we have. I don't know how else to put it other than that. And it is AMAZING what can be accomplished when we use it the right way.
Charlie's brothers told their mom and dad that they knew why his body was so cold. They said his soul was what made him warm. It's amazing to me the truth that little kids understand. I wish I understood all of this like they did. But I do have faith in the plan of salvation, and it may not be anywhere near perfect, but it's good enough for me for now.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Friday, May 22, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
I just haven't been in the mood to post. And It's hard to fake it. So when I'm feeling all "Yay! My daughter is 2" Then I'll post it. Til then... it maybe a little quiet here on my blog. Maybe it'll come after her Party!
For anyone who'd like to come, i think we'll be having it here on Sunday night at Chris's Parents. If you want more info, let me know. til then...
Saturday, May 16, 2009
I love you Handsome... Happy Anniversary (a day late.)
Thursday, May 14, 2009
When you're taking pictures of little kids, you're always on your knees, so the knees began to wear out. In the past 5 years, the knees have just simply unraveled!
These jeans have fit me on my skinny days, they've fit me when I'm 9 months pregnant. I have a bond with these jeans like no other. (Actually i had another pair of jeans similar to these, but chris made an ugly comment about them and I pitched a fit and threw them away. I'll always miss those jeans!) These jeans have been through alot with me.
Here's purple paint from the girls bedroom.
Here's deck stain from when I helped chris and john stain John's deck when i was pregnant with taylor.
I cut them. And I don't think they look too bad.
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Thursday, May 7, 2009
HE WASN"T EVEN LOOKING! He just glanced down and POOF, there they were, so he picked them up. I'm SO jealous. I could kick him I'm so jealous. Of course, he let me have them... But still... I want to find my own. I looked for a bit outside before we came in finally, but no luck. That's me... NO LUCK. But Chris, that's another story! It must be because he's got more Irish blood than me. That's gotta be it.
I pressed the clovers in my scriptures. Did you know scriptures are great for pressing leaves and flowers? Here's the rose petals from Maddie's first valentines!
And I've kinda forgotten what these others are from, but it's something like mine and chris's first valentine's day married, or our anniversary or something. Whenever they're from, they're from chris and I like them.Though it is a great use for scriptures, it's not the only thing i use them for. One of mine and Chris's goals as a couple is to read the New Testament. I know this is a great way to come to know Christ better, and I'm so excited we're doing this. It's kind of been unofficially agreed that we'll read 5 chapters a night. When i make the bed every morning, I'm putting our scriptures on our pillows so that we have to touch them before we get into bed. That way, hopefully we'll remember.
The night before we last, we skipped reading! I know... after only 2 nights reading, we missed one. But we made up for it last night, reading 10 chapters. And it's not just reading. We discuss them too. I ask stupid questions and chris explains them to me. Some scriptures we've interpreted differently and it's nice to have his opinion to counter balance my own. It's been very interesting. Chris keeps telling me that Christ was the king of tough love. There are a few parts where the disciples just weren't getting it, and Jesus had to say "Come on guys! Seriously!" Well, maybe he didn't say it quite like that, but that's what makes it fun to discuss what we read. We stayed up til 12:30 last night reading. We almost stopped a few times cause it was so late, but we were having fun and spending time together so we just kept going.
We'll have finished Matthew tomorrow night and started on Mark! That's one book in only 6 days! I really hope we're able to keep this up. We may end up missing a few nights here and there, but hopefully we'll be able to make them up like we did the night before last. I'm so glad Chris came up with this idea... It was inspired. Sooooooo, Maybe I am a little Lucky. I've got one great Husband! Now if only I could find a four leaf clover, I'd be set!
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
My mom has a facebook page. It helps her talk to her seminary students and family. I think it's funny, but great too, that she has one. It's fun to tease her about it. The funniest part is when she first got her facebook account, she kept calling it "myface" and not on purpose either. She'd talk about getting on "myface." I crack up laughing just thinking about it.
Here's another little joke I heard from her... Ya know all those people who said we'd have a black president "When pigs fly!" Well, Swine flu! LOL... I love that one!
While I was on the phone with my mom, I was trying to lay Taylor down for her nap. Of course, Taylor's crying woke Maddie up, who'd already been asleep for about an hour and a half. Taylor was exhausted, but kept fighting nap time. She was kicking, screaming, pitching a HUGE fit. I finally had to put the baby gate up in her doorway and just walk away, letting her scream. My mom told it was about who could hold out the longest, me or Taylor. It was about enduring to the end!!! I told her I didn't know that was what Jesus had meant all those times!!! It's all about parenting. It took taylor 2 hours before she finally caved and fell asleep... but that 2 hour fit she threw will only result in a longer than usual nap time! I endured, and this is my reward! :)
My mom cracks me up. She's a nut "bless her heart," but I love her so much and love our crazy phone conversations.
Maddie is at that stage now where she's learning new things daily. Here's one of my favorite new things...
Monday, May 4, 2009
Another reason for me doing better is that me and Chris have decided to go to Florida!!! We were really wanting to go to Cocoa Beach for our anniversary (5 years this month) because that's where we went on our honeymoon. But it's a long drive, and alot of gas. So, we searched online and we found Fort Walton Beach. It's not quite 8 hours away(about 4 hours closer than cocoa beach!). That's a very doable amount. Plus, it's in the gulf, so the water is warmer (around 80 degrees all year) and the beaches are gorgeous white sand! We getting really excited. We even found a hotel right across the street from the beach that's pretty reasonably priced. I'm excited to go and just relax. No sight seeing. No agenda. No schedule. Just me and Chris, the girls, and the beach! Yes, we're taking the girls. I think Taylor will LOVE it. I think maddie will sleep! We're just loading up on swimmy diapers and baby sunscreen. Maybe we'll rent an umbrella for Maddie. Who knows what will happen, but I'm so excited for the change of pace and the relaxing.
Taylor will be turning 2 that weekend also... and maddie will be 8 months old. So we won't be celebrating with a big party then (obviously) But be on the look out, because we will be doing her birthday sometime before the end of the month. We just need to figure out when.
Hmmm... I don't think I got the point of my blogging today across. I'm so very grateful for Chris. For his sense of humor. For his knowledge of the Gospel. For his priesthood. For his great anniversary ideas. For being such a great dad. He can always make me smile when I'm not in the mood. And i can be pretty stubborn. I love him with all my heart and I'm grateful for him everyday of my life. He's the best!